I am oh so tired, but its a good kind of tired. I’ve been filled with theocratic activities for the past week!! We had our assembly this past weekend, which was amazing. I thoroughly enjoyed it, and it brought some goals of mine back in perspective and got me thinking about a lot, like what in the world i am doing after high school. I knew that i wanted to regular pioneer but some other stuff I was unsure about, still thinking bout some stuff but it was absolutely amazing. Then service all day yesterday, and all day today until I had to go to work. I need about 21 more hours…i can do it!! lol. I have a talk tonight, that I wrote last night, sigh, its going to be interesting. I didn’t have any time to prepare it. =/. I’m going to bethel tomorrow with 12 others! I cannot waitttt. It’s been too long since i’ve gone, and I REALLY REALLY wanna do temp work, at LEAST if not more. Definitely wanna do full time service of some sort, it might be just pioneering, but I would love to do more, like maybe full time bethel service, moving where the need is greater, or even gilead, but gilead is a goal that is my reach for the next 10years. We’ll see where my life takes me, but i’m thinkin temp work at bethel is deff in my future. lol. So tomorrow is gonna be saweeet. I gotta get ready for the meeting now, oh wait, i’m already dressed…well i do have to eat! lol peace.


6 Minutes

Soo i’m gonna try to write this in like 6 minutes. It’s 8:30 now. I haven’t written on my blog in a really really long time so i thought i would. it prolly hasn’t even been all that terribly long but it sure feels like it! Uhm so april vaca is next week! thank goodness, i need the break from school. I’ll be out in service every day because i am auxiliary pioneering until i become a regular pioneer, which is excitinggg. It’s like 62 days i think until graduation. (that’s including weekends and days off) I CAN”T WAIT to be done! oh man, 13 years of schooling and it’s time to be done and to move on! I submitted a speech for graduation, i thought it was pretty good and my bro and sis liked it a lot, so we’ll see how well i give it and if i actually have a shot at giving it in front of 1000+ people.. oh goodness. lol. Let’s see…what else… oh i went up to Mass this past weekend and saw some of my friends in a talent show, which was legit. Alex, gotta admit, you were actually pretty funny. Legit, your probs one of the funniest kids i know, and don’t respond by saying ik. i wonder if you actually do read this or if you just skim it like everyone else…hmm.. i guess we’ll find out. my friend amanda danced to single ladies, alvin’s version. soooo funny, and amanda was amazing at it, i wish i could dance! lol. what else i got 2 minutes.. and i’ve been typing non stop. ladida. oh so i have a test in current issues tomorrow about the response to 9/11 and guess what song starts to play on my ipod. yup, heaven, 9/11 version. i wanted to cry! it’s sooo sad, and that girl is prolly like 14 now… just thinking about the whole thing is so sad. i could start venting about ci but i’m not gonna right now. my ipod is playing some nice classical which is prolly helping me concentrate and type faster. the yearbook is COMPLETE! cannot wait for it to be published and in my hands.. kinda scared at what other people are gonna think! time up! i’m out. Peace.


I had a good day today….even thought it was absolutely freezing!! and it’s a week into spring…what the heck?? haha. i hate the weather sometimes, and love it others. Anyways, had a good time out in service, then chillaxed before clarinet lessons, then kris and shay came over!! i miss them so much, and we finally got to hang out. we just sat and talked for a good 3hours and then were like we need to do something, but because of the stupid driving laws, we couldn’t go anywhere, and we had been invited to go up to mass, stupid driving laws. lol. instead we walked to the gas station, got some energy drinks and junk food, came back, had some dinner, made cookies, and watched the notebook, ❤ that movie. unfortunately they left before it was over but it was still a good night! =)

it’s weird cause all week i’m crazy busy, and when i’m not on the weekends i get incredibly bored so i like having nights like this, where the rents leave and it’s just us girls chilling and having a good time. during the week i’m packed, i’ve got my job, then schoolwork, and preparing for a competition, and yearbook, and ffa, and horseback riding, and i got the meetings and service too because i’ll be pioneering. hehe. Then the weekends my life is like, dead. haha. But i always find something to do at some point. lol. and it works out. =) it’s late, i’m going to bed even though i’m hyped up on caffeine. haha ninightt.


I feel like the weather has been teasing us…it has been absolutely gorgeous the past couple days. I really want it to stay this warm now… like i might be miserable if it gets much below 60… it’s time to start pulling out the shorts and time to go shopping for the cute summer outfits! one problem…i have no money..ugh story of my life.

School…school, school, school…i’m competing in 3 competitions in ffa between now and the end of the year! for one i’m competing at states next week…andddd only like 12 weeks left?? something like that! Then i’m graduated and can finally move on in life! Ask me what i’m gonna do with my life…no clue. all i know is i plan to pioneer starting sept 1st..hopefully. =) The memorial is in 2 weeks! cannot wait. i love the memorial. Oh and i discover jw.org and watchtower.org [as in i actually browsed the website] and it’s incredible! i listened a chapter of Come, Be My Follower last night. it was awesome. lol. Alright, i should probably get back to that homework that i don’t want to do..ughhhhh.

My Keepers

Tomorrow is Never Promised..

One day a woman’s husband died, and on that clear, cold morning, in the warmth of their bedroom, the wife was struck with the pain of learning that sometimes there isn’t “anymore”. No more hugs, no more special moments to celebrate together, no more phone calls just to chat, no more “just one minute.” Sometimes, what we care about the most gets all used up and goes away, never to return before we can say good-bye, say “I love you.”

So while we have it, it’s best we love it, care for it, fix it when it’s broken and heal it when it’s sick. This is true for marriage…..And old cars… And children with bad report cards, and dogs with bad hips, and aging parents and grandparents. We keep them because they are worth it, because we are worth it.

Some things we keep — like a best friend who moved away or a sister-in-law after divorce. There are just some things that make us happy, no matter what.

Life is important, like people we know who are special.. And so, we keep them close!

I received this from someone who thought I was a ‘keeper’! Then I sent it to the people I think of in the same way… Now it’s your turn to send this to all those people who are “keepers” in your life, including the person who sent it, if you feel that way.  Suppose one morning you never wake up, do all your friends know you love them?

I was thinking…I could die today, tomorrow or next week, and I wondered if I had any wounds needing to be healed, friendships that needed rekindling or three words needing to be said.

Let every one of your friends know you love them. Even if you think they don’t love you back, you would be amazed at what those three little words and a smile can do.  And just in case I’m gone tomorrow.


Live today because tomorrow is not promised.. So to all my friends…you know who you are, you will always be in my heart, never will you fall, just hold on tight, and I promise you the world…keep me in your heart, and i will never be far behind. ❤ 

[[SS, KS, DM, JL, AG, NG, EG, AG, AB, ER, ZD, AB, TB, CB, JB, JC, & AC]] 


I haven’t blogged in a really long time, so I thought i would write before i go back to school for Opening night of Fiddler on the Roof! I’m in pit, i have a solo in the wedding song, and it’s a really good musical. Life has been crazy, between pit and term paper and jobs and life! I think back to almost a year ago (how crazy is that) when me and my friends hung out all the time, not necessarily every wkend, but whenever we were free….i can’t remember the last time that’s happened…and idk if it’s cause we’ve grown up, or moved on, or moved apart or grown apart…it’s just not the same anymore. Remember those bracelets? ***FRIENDS*** yea those, betcha it slipped your mind and it’s somewhere in your room. We promised to stick together and not let anything come between us. I mean i’m not saying that anything has… but it’s crazy how much changes in a year, a couple months, even a week or a day! lol. Who knows what will happen in the future. To think that its only 3 months..and school will be over.. i still don’t know if i’m gonna go to college, i guess i’ll just take a class or two at UCONN and see how everything goes.. just to be on the safe side. It’s really cool to watch from the corner of the room and to know you’re not a part of anything going on but to read what’s happening… sorry my mind is all over the place tonight!! Alright i gotta leave for the musical… hopefull i will write again soon. Have fun this weekend with whatever you’re doing! =)

Urban Dictionary

If you go to urbandictionary.com you can look up your name/friends names and see what they come up with…here are the top 5 definitions for Vanessa:

1) A moderately common name for an American female; pretty; hot; beautiful; perfect; cutest girl you’ll ever see; angel [[i like how it ends in angel, kinda ironic when u think of the rest of my name =D]]

2)As stated in other definitions of vanessa, she is always known as being cute, and is the basic definition of perfection. she is the most beautiful girl in the world, and is perfect in every single way, people associated with the name vanessa are usually attracted to large wooden clocks [[[noooo clue where the large wooden clocks came from but ok!]]] lol

3) means butterfly in greek [true statement] lol

4) A beautiful girl. Loves music, hanging out with her friends, and eating. Very friendly, sexy and stylish. The one best friend everyone wants. The on girl every guy wants. She’s tough, so don’t mess around with her. She is the most special girl in the world.

–>i think this one is my fav/closest to me even though they are all pretty accurate.

and finally 5) Smart, funny, charming, caring, responsible, beautiful, gorgeous eyes that would be so easy to get lost in, yet you would never care, so lost yet held there so happy so content, and a smile that lights up a room and makes your heart pound. A rare combination, someone beautiful inside as well as outside. [[this one made me smile cause of thought of some things.. =) i like this one too]]